One day when Gregory was very small – less than two years old – we went and bought two giant candy apples. They had caramel and chocolate and nuts. We sat together in the afternoon sun and ate every last bite. I was young, but had to be GROWN UP, since I was already a MOM. On this day, I felt excited and childlike. Seeing him all sticky and smiley made me happy too. I was still between two worlds.